i skip my school for today

the reasons are . .
1 . i really bored with my acitvity . don't know why
2 . i hate being popular . include to socialize with 'it girl' too
3. i did 'it' . that equals , i screw up my day for now , and the next day
4. i've got TP . telat pulang . it is one of a kind of silly rules , which is my stupido school had

i'm lost , don't know what should i do , and don't know what i've been done yesterday . i just hope i didn't act like a cowards or nerdy girl yesterday . i REALLY don't wannabe like the old days . when i still being a coward and a nerd girl , who had a fat body , and wore glasses . and usually do 'it' . i don't want to be like those girl anymore . but, how could i change my bad attitude ? please help me . i'm totally in lost right now . .

What is a friends are for ?

a week ago , i went to school , and met some friends. some of them , was being dislike me , and the others are netral . i met them and say hello like usuall. sounds weird , because me and my friends is still play and hang out together . but , i fell different since i being ignored before . actually , all my friends was quite forgive me . but , there is one of my friend (whose always i called a double face) she's always try to manas2in keadaan untill my friends hates me again :'(. but, three days ago . a miracle happened :) . in the beginning, dhika was greeting me on msn . i chat with her, we were gossiping and laugh together like the old days . then , nia greeting me ! it rather surprised me , because she's almost never greeting me since i've got a fight with dhika . sounds lebay , but i'm soo happy that night . although i tell to everyone that i reliefed those girls . but deep in my heart , it still hurt saw my friends one by one leaved me . hahahha . the day after (which was two days ago) i hang out with nia in pim . we ate a lot of sushi and we talked a lot . and i feel soo comfortable :) finally , i can make a conclusion . friend are for we stuck on any problem , for cheer we up , for share any feel we had . and temen yg sebenarnya itu , akan kembali pada kita walau apapun kondisinya :)

what is supposed to do on your diet ?

if you know, please tell me . coz sadly , i really don't know how to do a real straight diet . 2 days ago . my friends in ilp told me , that i was more fatty than before . i ain't shocked but they're words were still in my mind . i was thinking during the class and the next day . i was fasting . yes , in my family . fasting is like one of a way to be more slim and healthy . it's like were belief : . i supposed to pay my fine in ramadhan before . but , in fact i don't buka puasa . untill , the next day ! yap , i don't eat and drink all day long ! if you thought i weird , yeah . maybe you're right . i don't know . is this called anorexia or not . but , this is the way i choose to do my diet . almost one year ago , i do the same way . and voila ! my weight loss 2-3 kg for 3 days ! at the first time , i didn't believe how it could be happend . but , now i believe this is a way too loose some kilos of my body . but , besides that . i doing some excersice too . like , treadmill , jogging , and skipe rope every night (honestly , the all excerses i do . it depends on my mood to do it . so it's not a routine :P) for skipe rope , there's two reason why i choose it . first : to loose my weight of course . and second part is : to add my height ! sadly , i'm a poor short and fatty girl . (luckilly , i'm not too ugly :P) please , if some of you know how to solve this problem . i BEG you to share with me . please ? :)

BORED

is getting bored in here . my mom is going with my sister and my dad is nowhere . everybody is going now . even my housemaid too ! jeez . i'm alone at home now . feel lonelly , and scary . what i can do now , just typing with my laptop and repost this . i still kikuk with my close friends in high school . yeah , since "that" case . i feel further with my friends . especially nhya and dhika . plus , there is one person whose always burnt those girls with some doktrin . jeez , i really hate this mean girls . why i can have a good relationship with kind of this girl before ? huuuuh . now , i just hope and pray that was clear and we can get nice time like we had before .

well finally , i make it

actually , it had been a long time ago when i had a really new blog . but , i really didn't understand how to make it :) so , i decided to make a new one . and tried my poor english as well . god , i really bad in english ya know . but i tried to fix them while i post in this blog :3 well , here goes my story