confession of a broken heart (mau muntah bacanya

LEBAY period. jeez i really hates this REALLY. everytime i couldn't sleep well, everytime i do nothing in my room, every moment after we keep in touch, or everytime i saw he's picture in facebook. that flashback comes to me automatically and constantly. that pain, that tears, that happy, that passion, all mixed up in my mind. sometimes i embarrassed why i must fall in love with this sucks guy, but somehow i feel like my heart is empty, like my tears would be falling down again because of this guy. i know i miss him really bad, i know deep in my heart i still waiting for him, wait untill he likes me again one day. but i know, that he don't like me anymore, he dumped me because he bored with me, and i like a rubbish bin in his eyes. i know it all . but hey, love is blind right? and because of it, i can see or even think clearly why i'm supposed to do now. i ignored every advice comes to me like "masuk kuping kiri keluar kuping kanan". well, maybe i do some advice at first. but, day by day i do on my own. maybe some people think i'm lost, drama queen, blablabla. but, i know some of you know this feeling. this feeling when you lose something while you like it. it hurts right ? it perfectly hurts when it becomes a first time. i told you thousand times, it was my very first time that i like a guy so much. and i don't know why my very first love must "awarded" to him ? a skinny, black, thin, and a donkey guy like him.

gosh -_-

Oh, Oh

I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through

When it comes to relationships

Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen

When I told myself that was it

Now here I go, hurt again

Cause of my curiosity

Now that its over

What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus:]

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I got life to do

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

But this time its different

I don't even feel the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause

I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me

Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh

Will my true love ever be?

Why would I go on a search again

When I know what the end will be

What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you

Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me

I can't keep going through life

Unaware of what I missed

And the person I could be

Love's good when its right

And when it's left in your memory

All the times I let you down

I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

(I'm not missing you)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

(I got life to do)

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

(I used to hate it)

Oh different, oh see the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

Oh different, feel the distance

Stacie Orrico - I'm not missing you

one of my bestfriends recommends me to listen this song, because she found that this song is really i am for now. hahahhahahah. but, it's a good song really. i began to love it :)

ps : ga papa kan yah mau curcol sekali-kali kan yah. maaf kalo terlalu radikal atau apalah namanya :)