H O L I D A Y (while i am free like a bird :)))

goes to anyer with my classmate

goof around with nia and dhika

get a safari night with my dearest family

hang around with my citra and karimah after we officially graduates :)

how about yours ? i've been busy these day about junior high's reunion , waiting for the snmptn's result , and goof around with my schoolmates ( we purposed to fill loads of sweet memories before were all separate for college :'(

confession of a broken heart (mau muntah bacanya

LEBAY period. jeez i really hates this REALLY. everytime i couldn't sleep well, everytime i do nothing in my room, every moment after we keep in touch, or everytime i saw he's picture in facebook. that flashback comes to me automatically and constantly. that pain, that tears, that happy, that passion, all mixed up in my mind. sometimes i embarrassed why i must fall in love with this sucks guy, but somehow i feel like my heart is empty, like my tears would be falling down again because of this guy. i know i miss him really bad, i know deep in my heart i still waiting for him, wait untill he likes me again one day. but i know, that he don't like me anymore, he dumped me because he bored with me, and i like a rubbish bin in his eyes. i know it all . but hey, love is blind right? and because of it, i can see or even think clearly why i'm supposed to do now. i ignored every advice comes to me like "masuk kuping kiri keluar kuping kanan". well, maybe i do some advice at first. but, day by day i do on my own. maybe some people think i'm lost, drama queen, blablabla. but, i know some of you know this feeling. this feeling when you lose something while you like it. it hurts right ? it perfectly hurts when it becomes a first time. i told you thousand times, it was my very first time that i like a guy so much. and i don't know why my very first love must "awarded" to him ? a skinny, black, thin, and a donkey guy like him.

gosh -_-

Oh, Oh

I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through

When it comes to relationships

Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen

When I told myself that was it

Now here I go, hurt again

Cause of my curiosity

Now that its over

What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus:]

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I got life to do

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

But this time its different

I don't even feel the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause

I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me

Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh

Will my true love ever be?

Why would I go on a search again

When I know what the end will be

What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you

Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me

I can't keep going through life

Unaware of what I missed

And the person I could be

Love's good when its right

And when it's left in your memory

All the times I let you down

I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

(I'm not missing you)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

(I got life to do)

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

(I used to hate it)

Oh different, oh see the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

Oh different, feel the distance

Stacie Orrico - I'm not missing you

one of my bestfriends recommends me to listen this song, because she found that this song is really i am for now. hahahhahahah. but, it's a good song really. i began to love it :)

ps : ga papa kan yah mau curcol sekali-kali kan yah. maaf kalo terlalu radikal atau apalah namanya :)

H o l i d a y raaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwrrr

Holiday activities (before USM ITB II) :

studying for every PTN tests

met some friends

flashback about the heartbreaker *it really sucks but i did it jeez -,-

vyna, and me @ Bandung (when i applied my form for USM ITB II

K A R A O K I

(my voice really "kebanting" with vyna's bahahahhaha

studying for usm itb's (again

so sorry for the very late updates guys :)

i'm very busy with every tests : UMB-PTN (Ujian Masuk Bersama Perguruan Tinggi Negeri), SNMPTN's (Seleksi Nasional Masuk Perguruan Tinggi Negri) and so on and so on.

here is some picture i took with my junior high friends in Bandung 2 months ago. between Bawono, me, Vyna, and Among. only Among got the test. he accepted in SITH ITB but, he told me that he still confused to take it. since he's got SI for BINUS University too. besides, he really hates Biology like i am. actually, he slip take that faculty. but it's too pity to leave that chance right? ITB gitu. so he's still confused till now. Bawono got's HI-UNPAD, Vyna got HI-UNPAR.

ONLY ME-the only one-WHO'S STILL NGANGGUR zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i beg you all, prayed for me to have a miracle please :')

failure is the success of the pending

i just wish that wise words really works. because i failed in USM II ITB and this means i failed for every PTN test which i joined in. it's very sad right? everybody cheers me. they said "maybe your way is not in here zsa, maybe god have another plans for you." or "failure is the success of the pending. so keep fighting and pray for the best zsa." but hell-ooo . . .

1. i'm sure my way is being a technical student of Institute of Technology Bandung. ITB is my dream since i was 13th !
2. okay maybe failure is the success of the pending. but, when my success comes to me if it always pending? until when? should i waiting it forever? jeeeez

i can't think logically now (after that prom fuck night to be correct. i really need someone to calm my soul and my mind down but i don't know who she or he is. maybe you have any suggestion ?

when the winds go away they never turns back. and because i am the wind there's no chance for me to turns back

i'm in the middle of watching korean drama Boys Before Flowers. and i'm terribly addict with the main actor goo joon pyo >,< . the words above is

one of my favorite quotes in this drama-these words really describe my situation now isn't it ? :p

this drama is based on manga Hana Yori Dango. basically i'm a big fan of Hana Yori Dango so that i loved all drama that narrated about it. hehehhe. but i think this is THE BEST drama of Hana Yori Dango. all personnel of F4 is incredibly GORGEOUS. not mention to lebay, but the fact that F4 is really make me hysteria is correct. ahhahahha i really recommend you all to watch this drama. hahhaha

all personnel of F4 it's incredibly awesome! i love it hahahahha

lee min hoo i want you soo baad aaaaaaarggggggghhhh Lebay mode : on

mimimamemo

heihoo everyone :)

i don't know what to do now, and don't know what to write either. hahhahaha

anyway one of my friend told me that my blog has got a "gado2" language and had too many english for an indonesian blog. so that, i decided to remake my blog as english blog. although my english literature is very very very dumb, but i hope you can enjoy my blog as usual :)

by the way, i just arrived from bandung. it was very fun, because i went there just with my friends. no parents, no sisters, no relation. just me with my schoolmate and my old friend. we goof around a lot. photos will post ASAP. hehehehe

Ps: i still improved my english very hard, so i need your critics to helped :)

is a pleasure having bestfriend like you guys!

heii-hoo folks! 

actually i tried not to online for a while to concentrate for my itb and umb. but sadly i can't make it ;p maybe after i post this. i'll be really offline for a while this time.ahahhahahha

well, last saturday and sunday night i hung up with my best pals. we talked a lot of things and of course took loads of picture too :) here's some off silly picture that i took with my friends

sebenarnya there's loaaads of picture that i took with them. tapi berhubung blog cmn bisa nampilin yg se iprit gini yaa apa boleh buat deh yaaaaaaaaa . . .

once more, i really want to say HUGE thanks to all my best best girls for support me and makes me to ngebolang until i forget my problemo. hahhahahah thank youuu <3>