Confession

another random mind

2011-01-24T19:57:00.000-08:00

"Let's just stop and think, before I lose face

Surely I can't fall, into a game of chase

Around his little finger, that boy has got me curled

I try to reach out, but he's in his own world

This boy's got my head tied in knots with all his games

I simply want him more because he looks the other way"

yeah, why can't you want me like the others boys do?

Random

2010-12-22T19:11:00.000-08:00

“.. I know I'll see you again, whether far or soon, but I need you to know that I care, and I miss you.” -Incubus.

i miss every single kiss, hugs, and warm of you. dear 'friend'

dear kid

2010-07-21T23:24:00.000-07:00

My Plan is to forgive and forget.

Forgive myself for being stupid. and Forget YOU ever existed.

i'm sorry mr. pot head, for mistakes i did :(

2010-02-15T07:05:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry i can't grow up . . . yet

i'm sorry i aint be a good girlfriend for you . . . yet

i'm sorry if i'm too childish

i'm sorry if i'm too selfish

i'm sorry if i'm too ignorant to grope your feelin, and your needs

and i'm sorry for blaming you for everything i do

now i'm realize that i mistaken. and i deeply want to repair it.

i do love you. Mr. pot head. and i don't feel any regret and tired to be with you :*)

tweet tweet tweetooong

2009-09-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

eventough at the very first time i can't get the joyed from join in twitter but now, i think i can't get the excitement a bit :p well peopleeeeeeee, please follow me on

http://twitter.com/larazaannisa

i'll be very glad if you all mentions mine on your tweets. cheers xoxoxo -Zsa2

p.s : i had a wonderful holiday with my jhs's and my girls all stories is coming up next post, so sorry can't told ya for now, because i have loads of assignment to do :(

college's life

2009-09-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

wells, it's nearly 2 months since i was pass in snmptn's. and now, i'm quite adapted with new college, new routine, and of course new friends :). they're all nice and really made my day endured in bandung :) but the funny fact is : some of them are connected with my friends in jakarta. like : her ex boyfriend is my friend's boyfriend, or my curhat's boyfriend is her old hts-an's. ahhahah sorry for the gado2 language.these fact always make me laugh, and realize that the worlds around me is connected each other. it makes me feels curious what else story will connected mine with others. hahahahahahah

another happy ending but sad beginning :"(

2009-08-06T03:52:00.000-07:00

hoy-aaaa readers
so soooowi for the late (like usual) update

i just want all of you to know that i FINALLY accepted as an undergraduate student of economy at UNIVERSITAS PADJAJARAN bandung in SNMPTN's test !

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

it was like an electric shock for me at the first time. even i re-checked for a thousand times, i still can't believe that i got it :') you know, i felt unbelievable happy saw the magic word
C O N G R A T U L A T I O N in my account test :")
but, at the same time i felt dissapointed because i failed (again) to entered ITB (since unpad is the second choice, my first choice is SAPPK ITB) - yeah maybe this is the bad side being human. they all never satisfied for what they got, include me - but hellooo . . .

i didn't study hard for the test
i didn't clever like amal did, for 3 years in high school
even my presented absences in school was lame (fyi my absences for a year in senior year is 20 absences zzzzz)

so i warned my self that maybe entered unpad is another chance for me from god, to study more and keep on trying to take snmptn's next year untill i wear that tosca jacket (with ganesha as a logo) :))

thanks to ALLAH who can make me entired PTN. alhamdulillaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

now, i can officially said :

Goodbye high school, welcome COLLEGE !

wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

but the bad thing is, Nia (one of my bestfirend who gave me an 18th birthday surprise) can't entered unpad like i do. because she's also accepted at uns with the same major she gets in unpad zzzzzzzzzzz. her dad and her oldest sister didn't allowed her to it. because they thinks jatinangor is to freedom for her. darn huhuhuhuh i feel bad for her. one of the reason i chose UNPAD as a second choice is because she accepted on it. if i knew the end is like this, i prefer ui as a second choice really (in real i choose ui as the last choices). for the next 2 weeks, i must leave karimah, citra, dhika, and nia as well unyuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. i am really sad to think that i must life without those guys around zzzzzzzz

P.s : i really had a great time with my junior high friends at carita beach (pictures comin up. and yeah i still can't move on from my stupid ex boyfriend but i tried to make it as possible as i could :)

H O L I D A Y (while i am free like a bird :)))

2009-07-18T09:32:00.001-07:00

goes to anyer with my classmate

goof around with nia and dhika

get a safari night with my dearest family

hang around with my citra and karimah after we officially graduates :)

how about yours ? i've been busy these day about junior high's reunion , waiting for the snmptn's result , and goof around with my schoolmates ( we purposed to fill loads of sweet memories before were all separate for college :'(

confession of a broken heart (mau muntah bacanya

2009-07-07T10:12:00.000-07:00

LEBAY period. jeez i really hates this REALLY. everytime i couldn't sleep well, everytime i do nothing in my room, every moment after we keep in touch, or everytime i saw he's picture in facebook. that flashback comes to me automatically and constantly. that pain, that tears, that happy, that passion, all mixed up in my mind. sometimes i embarrassed why i must fall in love with this sucks guy, but somehow i feel like my heart is empty, like my tears would be falling down again because of this guy. i know i miss him really bad, i know deep in my heart i still waiting for him, wait untill he likes me again one day. but i know, that he don't like me anymore, he dumped me because he bored with me, and i like a rubbish bin in his eyes. i know it all . but hey, love is blind right? and because of it, i can see or even think clearly why i'm supposed to do now. i ignored every advice comes to me like "masuk kuping kiri keluar kuping kanan". well, maybe i do some advice at first. but, day by day i do on my own. maybe some people think i'm lost, drama queen, blablabla. but, i know some of you know this feeling. this feeling when you lose something while you like it. it hurts right ? it perfectly hurts when it becomes a first time. i told you thousand times, it was my very first time that i like a guy so much. and i don't know why my very first love must "awarded" to him ? a skinny, black, thin, and a donkey guy like him.

gosh -_-

Oh, Oh

I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through

When it comes to relationships

Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen

When I told myself that was it

Now here I go, hurt again

Cause of my curiosity

Now that its over

What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus:]

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

I'm not missing you

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I got life to do

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

But this time its different

I don't even feel the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause

I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me

Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh

Will my true love ever be?

Why would I go on a search again

When I know what the end will be

What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle

Why didn't I keep it?

'Cause I hated the heartbreak

Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you

Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me

I can't keep going through life

Unaware of what I missed

And the person I could be

Love's good when its right

And when it's left in your memory

All the times I let you down

I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me

(I'm not missing you)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

(I got life to do)

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

(I used to hate it)

Oh different, oh see the distance

I'm not missing

I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions

Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)

You might have had me open

But I must be going because

I know I'm usually hanging on

I used to hate to see you gone

Oh different, feel the distance

Stacie Orrico - I'm not missing you

one of my bestfriends recommends me to listen this song, because she found that this song is really i am for now. hahahhahahah. but, it's a good song really. i began to love it :)

ps : ga papa kan yah mau curcol sekali-kali kan yah. maaf kalo terlalu radikal atau apalah namanya :)

H o l i d a y raaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwrrr

2009-07-03T17:06:00.001-07:00

Holiday activities (before USM ITB II) :

studying for every PTN tests

met some friends

flashback about the heartbreaker *it really sucks but i did it jeez -,-

vyna, and me @ Bandung (when i applied my form for USM ITB II

K A R A O K I

(my voice really "kebanting" with vyna's bahahahhaha

studying for usm itb's (again

so sorry for the very late updates guys :)

i'm very busy with every tests : UMB-PTN (Ujian Masuk Bersama Perguruan Tinggi Negeri), SNMPTN's (Seleksi Nasional Masuk Perguruan Tinggi Negri) and so on and so on.

here is some picture i took with my junior high friends in Bandung 2 months ago. between Bawono, me, Vyna, and Among. only Among got the test. he accepted in SITH ITB but, he told me that he still confused to take it. since he's got SI for BINUS University too. besides, he really hates Biology like i am. actually, he slip take that faculty. but it's too pity to leave that chance right? ITB gitu. so he's still confused till now. Bawono got's HI-UNPAD, Vyna got HI-UNPAR.

ONLY ME-the only one-WHO'S STILL NGANGGUR zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i beg you all, prayed for me to have a miracle please :')

failure is the success of the pending

2009-06-12T09:02:00.000-07:00

i just wish that wise words really works. because i failed in USM II ITB and this means i failed for every PTN test which i joined in. it's very sad right? everybody cheers me. they said "maybe your way is not in here zsa, maybe god have another plans for you." or "failure is the success of the pending. so keep fighting and pray for the best zsa." but hell-ooo . . .

i'm sure my way is being a technical student of Institute of Technology Bandung. ITB is my dream since i was 13th !
okay maybe failure is the success of the pending. but, when my success comes to me if it always pending? until when? should i waiting it forever? jeeeez

i can't think logically now (after that prom fuck night to be correct. i really need someone to calm my soul and my mind down but i don't know who she or he is. maybe you have any suggestion ?

when the winds go away they never turns back. and because i am the wind there's no chance for me to turns back

2009-06-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

i'm in the middle of watching korean drama Boys Before Flowers. and i'm terribly addict with the main actor goo joon pyo >,< . the words above is

one of my favorite quotes in this drama-these words really describe my situation now isn't it ? :p

this drama is based on manga Hana Yori Dango. basically i'm a big fan of Hana Yori Dango so that i loved all drama that narrated about it. hehehhe. but i think this is THE BEST drama of Hana Yori Dango. all personnel of F4 is incredibly GORGEOUS. not mention to lebay, but the fact that F4 is really make me hysteria is correct. ahhahahha i really recommend you all to watch this drama. hahhaha

all personnel of F4 it's incredibly awesome! i love it hahahahha

lee min hoo i want you soo baad aaaaaaarggggggghhhh Lebay mode : on

mimimamemo

2009-05-31T10:47:00.000-07:00

heihoo everyone :)

i don't know what to do now, and don't know what to write either. hahhahaha

anyway one of my friend told me that my blog has got a "gado2" language and had too many english for an indonesian blog. so that, i decided to remake my blog as english blog. although my english literature is very very very dumb, but i hope you can enjoy my blog as usual :)

by the way, i just arrived from bandung. it was very fun, because i went there just with my friends. no parents, no sisters, no relation. just me with my schoolmate and my old friend. we goof around a lot. photos will post ASAP. hehehehe

Ps: i still improved my english very hard, so i need your critics to helped :)

is a pleasure having bestfriend like you guys!

2009-05-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

heii-hoo folks!

actually i tried not to online for a while to concentrate for my itb and umb. but sadly i can't make it ;p maybe after i post this. i'll be really offline for a while this time.ahahhahahha

well, last saturday and sunday night i hung up with my best pals. we talked a lot of things and of course took loads of picture too :) here's some off silly picture that i took with my friends

sebenarnya there's loaaads of picture that i took with them. tapi berhubung blog cmn bisa nampilin yg se iprit gini yaa apa boleh buat deh yaaaaaaaaa . . .

once more, i really want to say HUGE thanks to all my best best girls for support me and makes me to ngebolang until i forget my problemo. hahhahahah thank youuu <3>

Move on

2009-05-15T20:06:00.000-07:00

this is the best answer whose always people said to me. and this is the most hardest step to take. but i really have to get out of my lebay. because :

i'm tired to chased you all the time
tired crying because of you
tired to stay connected-as close as i could- with you
tired with this jealous feeling, when you menggatal with another girl
tired thinking, why you dumped me like this
you don't like me anymore
masih banyak ikan di lautan

I'm out. and i wish you have a good time with your "little sister", your close friends, your blablabla apapun itu embel-embelnya.

i deshi ty, por unë nuk kam si ju më.

Sayonara, Mogot Haholongan Devroij

My birthday bash

2009-05-14T17:28:00.000-07:00

Here Comes an upload for my 18th birthday surprise. thanks to you guys i LOVE IT :))

Dhika, me, Cyo, and the jilbabers LOL

HUGE Thanks

Dhika, Nia, Me, Tities, Cyo, Tacil, Ubay

Having new one is to forget the pass. but, is that ok?

2009-05-14T15:08:00.000-07:00

Well, i've got insomnia. I woke up at 2.30 in the morning and stay awake till now. so because of boredom. i just fesbukan and voilaaa! my friends told me that my ex boyfie will get a new cute girlfriend soon! zzzzzz

I shocked for a while. it was hurt (because we just broke up for 2 weeks- but my tears couldn't fall down for some reason. maybe i gave him up and let him go. or maybe i just tired being cried, cried, and cried because of him. but this is one of the consequences if you're still love your ex right?

Honestly, i'm not a girl whose always talk about boys or love stuff. i always ngecakin my friends if they cried because of their boyfriend. sounds cruel right? maybe because of that cruel, i've got karma. yes i thought my last relationship was a karma. but it was a sweet karma. the pain, jealousess, the passion. it's all mixed up. along that relationship, my thoughts always think about him. sounds gombal, but yeah that's true. and the most important thing : i aint cheated with other guy during that time.

i'm a very moody person. my relationship is always less or just a few months. and during that relatioship, usually i cheated with other guys. i always more enjoyful being hts-an than pacaran. some friends warned me to get off from my bad habit. but sadly, i was totally stubborned to pay attentioned. i was thinking that my boyfriend would be okay. that my boyfriend maybe did the same like i am. i didn't know how to loved someone. i just know how to have fun with guys and make them mine. Untill i met him . . .

one of my friend told me, that i fall in love with a wrong person. some friend warned me at the beginning i opened relationship with him. but hey, i'm a stubborned and senseless person right? so i don't care what people say and going on my own. with all of our similarities, and all of our passions. i thought i found the right guy. i thought it wouldn't be like my relationship before. i thought this relationship would be different. but times flies really fast like a night turns out to a morning. after 2 weeks together, i felt that he kind of boring with me. but surprisingly i ain't feel the same! i still liked him like i was before. like our first day relationship. it lost my confidence a lot, and i tried not to like him as big as i was. so i was searching for some guys and when i got it . .

WTF!! i still liked him so bad !! i still thinking of him even i hung out with other guy !! it was not like i always did. this began insane. i weaseled with my bestfriend and then she laughed a lot. she laughed like it was the most jokes she've ever heard.

She said "ahahahhahah jie yg lagi jatoh cinte. gimana rasanya? enak? " then i said "gigi lo enak. makan ati iya deh gueeee." >,<>

jeeezz . . i really couldn't thinks right that time. what i think is about how to loose this feeling, how not to liked him soo bad. coz cheating wasn't manjur for me, so i decided not to called nor texted him. i purposed to make a distance as long as i could. i pretended angry to saw his reaction. but he didn't care, even he didn't realize what i angry for! i searched for some reason to be angry. then, i found it. it was sunday, and it was her ex hts-an birthday. it would be our date. but i couldn't go out, so we cancel it. during that day i just goof around at home. i was waiting for his sms but he didn't texted me. he didnt texted or called me that day. even once ! okay, maybe i was childish and lebay that time. but, if youre on a jealousy you coldn't think youre right or not. isn't it? plus if youre jealous with someone whose have something that you haven't and with all the problems before, it was like triple jackpot for me. bad jackpot. i angry to the max, but hurt to the max too. i didn't know what this feeling is. but i know, i should end this up if i didn't want to hurt again.

Like i always said. we similar in maaaaaany waaaaays. our stubborned, our careless, even our tactless is same too. the guy i've been searching all this time is finally found. but maybe god's tell the truth. we end up because

he's not right for me like i ain't right for him

So i'm thinking that i must going on my own life like he does. this pain will leaved a scar. but this scar will heal with a medicine. and for me the medicine is my best friend, my family, and maybe someday i really find the real right man :-)

searching for a pain killer

2009-05-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

I try to speak, but my words never catch the air

Like you never knew I was there

Take me back to the days when you really cared

Can we make love re-appear?

I can't go on the roads too long

And now all is said and done

I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

lemar-time to grow

i broke up and it's still hurt till now. our relationship was less than a month, but for me it's like a year :'( i cried a lot but it's okay now. i don't know how to say.maybe he kind of boring with me, or he didn't like me anymore. i just feelin that he was change since our 2 weeks relationship. i told you before, that is a lot of similarities between me and him and i guess because of that we better end up and started our new relationship as a friend :)

i learned a lot from him. and i hope he can learned from our relationship too. after triple times being relationship i guess this is the most painful. but i found it fun too :')

for now, i tried so hard focused on studying and my last day being high school student.

pray for me ya ;)

ps : Poy, if you read this i just want you to know that i still waiting for you for being opened with me like your promised. and i really wanted that day will come soon :)

UAN,boyfie,blablablah

2009-04-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

hello folllllllksss

it seems a million times ago since my last posting right? ahahhaha. i'm sorry, i've been busy with loads of attachment. UAN stuff, PTN stuff, and many moooooooooore stuff as a senior student.well,in a distance since my last post there were a lot of thing happened. some of them really makes me learned to fight more, pray more, and study more. ahahhahah :D

well, here is my experience during this time

I ain't excepted in SIMAK UI.which is soooo sad to remember.i dont want to write more details-sorry because it's really makes me sad and disappointed and made me feel useless as a daughter and a student
well,in a dark side it's always have a bright side behind.and for me the bright side is trough a boyfriend ;) yup, i have a new boyfriend. he's the one who i met in sidney's birthday party last time i told you hehehehe. this time i feel different compared my last relationship.i like him sooo much.and our habit is similar in many ways.maybe he's not good looking, or diligent like my type. but his gentleness really makes me melting.ahahhahahha.sounds cheesy but yeah i'm falling in love with him for sure ;D -i haven't take any photos of him maybe next time i will post it.
now, i'm in the middle of final exam on high school. and i feel VERY NERVOUS for chemie,physic,and of course science mat (yeah,fortunately i'm a science student in my high school).i'm trying soo hard to concentrate to study. no chatting, no facebook, no blogging. but, sadly i can live without my laptop and connecting to internet hell shit! so many subjects of UAN really made me feels dizzy bzzzzz pray for me ya ;)

well, those are my latest live updates. how about you? i would love to know your activities too :))

a tears month

2009-03-06T22:02:00.000-08:00

well hell-o everyone.i'm sorry for the very late update.i just quite busy with my final exam and every kind of test to the university like SIMAK UI,UTUL UGM,blablabla. i've became an unsocial people since february till now.i just attended sidney's birthday party in hilton and it's like a guilty pleasure for me because most of my friends has been studying.and times goes very fast then calendar show that day is the first day of march . which is SIMAK UI began.i've study damn hard till my ass off and i eat a lot becouse my nervous and guess what i've got?! i'm CRYING.yes, crying like a baby at the end off simak tes. i really CAN'T STOP MY TEARS FALLING DOWN because i didn't do my best at the test.i doubt to answered because i scared my scored will be minus and my brain is blank at the moment i saw the question so i couldn't answer the question either the easiest one.i really feel guilty with my parents because of it.i feel terrible as a daughter and a human.thousand time i regreted why i aint answered the question which was i could answered but because of nervous, so i didn't answered it :'( mom, dad if you are read this post you will know that your daughter really feel sorry for her lazyness,dumbness,and lamenesses. especially you dad, i feel sorry if couldn't made you proud. i swear i'll try soo hard to reach ptn so it makes your struggle will not end in smoke :')

after a long time break

2008-12-22T07:46:00.000-08:00

hello folks!
i'm certainly know.it must be a loooong time ago since i wrote my last post right. hehehe
yeah, after that FKUI TRIP.my sense of writing in english just obtused. and i don't know why.
actually i've got lots of thing to write but i couldn't translated in english.so i just kept in my head.

tomorrow will be my last day of an ILP's exam i'm a very AFRAID of it.don't know why.maybe because i was the donkest girl in a class.really i've get nerves on it.my skill of vocab is WORST so do my tenses. i really not smart on those two fatal things.i don't know. even i've been practiced english since i was in elementary.still, i can't use in properly. fiiiuuuuuh.it's a bit frustating remembered how i really overwhelmed with that stupid exam last friday.i wish i will be successful with my exam tomorrow.pray for me ya ;-)
last satnight i hung out with some friends to ka pita's wedding party-fyi, ka pita is nia's sister and nia is my bf in high school :) i went there with shasa and thika by thika's car.we goof around there and of course takes some silly picture.hahaha.it will release soon !
my weight is increase 3 kg.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz it was getting frustated at the beginning but i'd try not to lebay and do some exercise to control it. you know, i hadn't been get ANY exersice since lebaran wich is 2 or 3 months ago :'(

FKUI Trip

2008-08-02T06:48:00.000-07:00

well , last tuesday . Me , Hima , and Cyo went to FKUI at Salemba . we want to joined to Tes Minat Bakat . it such a psikotes, but more specific because, with this test we will know what is the real talent that we have . we took the form, we decided to take that test at 10 August. which has the same time with karimah and her friends take the test. and after we filled it, we hang around in the area . it was kinda fun trip .While in there Hima and Cyo were very excited. they both want to be a doctor , and really wants to study in there. so it necessary for me to see how excited they are. they clingak-clinguk and walk around like kids. oh, they both took lots of picture too. this is one of pictures we took together :)

This is Hima and me in front of FKUI building

p.s : i aint sent any photos to my handphone yet. this is the one i have . another photos will be add soon :)

blablabla

2008-08-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

it's raining out there . and i'm getting bored with my laptop . you know , it's been more than 4 hours i'm surfing on the internet. and my eyes getting irritate. this is the most BORING satnight i've ever had T_T . Actually , my friends asked me to accompanny with them to kemang festival , yesterday. and i said ok to them . but , today . my body is absolutelly not ok . i nearly vomitted at kopaja , when i on the way home from depok. ah , it was an embarresing accident and i aint retell to anyone. back to the topic. i came home. and when i arrived, i've got headache. njrit! why accindent always come ! last night, my head was hit the bed. then, my stomach was getting sore. sh*t. whereas i really want to kemang festival today ! wtf ! why i've got a sick in the same time with kemang festival opened ! huhuhuhu . so , with heavyhearted (i don't know what's the right word for "berat hati" is this correct ?) i told my friends that i couldn't come. huhuhuhu. i REALLY want to come to KEMANG FESTIVAL . huhuhu . i want to see or maybe buy some clothes and bracelet , and many girl stuff which is sale in there . huhuhu . but , my mom is planning to go to kemang festival tomorrow . i still try to persuade my mom to invite me . wish me luck ! hehehehe

i skip my school for today

2008-07-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

the reasons are . .
1 . i really bored with my acitvity . don't know why
2 . i hate being popular . include to socialize with 'it girl' too
3. i did 'it' . that equals , i screw up my day for now , and the next day
4. i've got TP . telat pulang . it is one of a kind of silly rules , which is my stupido school had

i'm lost , don't know what should i do , and don't know what i've been done yesterday . i just hope i didn't act like a cowards or nerdy girl yesterday . i REALLY don't wannabe like the old days . when i still being a coward and a nerd girl , who had a fat body , and wore glasses . and usually do 'it' . i don't want to be like those girl anymore . but, how could i change my bad attitude ? please help me . i'm totally in lost right now . .

What is a friends are for ?

2008-07-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

a week ago , i went to school , and met some friends. some of them , was being dislike me , and the others are netral . i met them and say hello like usuall. sounds weird , because me and my friends is still play and hang out together . but , i fell different since i being ignored before . actually , all my friends was quite forgive me . but , there is one of my friend (whose always i called a double face) she's always try to manas2in keadaan untill my friends hates me again :'(. but, three days ago . a miracle happened :) . in the beginning, dhika was greeting me on msn . i chat with her, we were gossiping and laugh together like the old days . then , nia greeting me ! it rather surprised me , because she's almost never greeting me since i've got a fight with dhika . sounds lebay , but i'm soo happy that night . although i tell to everyone that i reliefed those girls . but deep in my heart , it still hurt saw my friends one by one leaved me . hahahha . the day after (which was two days ago) i hang out with nia in pim . we ate a lot of sushi and we talked a lot . and i feel soo comfortable :) finally , i can make a conclusion . friend are for we stuck on any problem , for cheer we up , for share any feel we had . and temen yg sebenarnya itu , akan kembali pada kita walau apapun kondisinya :)

what is supposed to do on your diet ?

2008-07-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

if you know, please tell me . coz sadly , i really don't know how to do a real straight diet . 2 days ago . my friends in ilp told me , that i was more fatty than before . i ain't shocked but they're words were still in my mind . i was thinking during the class and the next day . i was fasting . yes , in my family . fasting is like one of a way to be more slim and healthy . it's like were belief : . i supposed to pay my fine in ramadhan before . but , in fact i don't buka puasa . untill , the next day ! yap , i don't eat and drink all day long ! if you thought i weird , yeah . maybe you're right . i don't know . is this called anorexia or not . but , this is the way i choose to do my diet . almost one year ago , i do the same way . and voila ! my weight loss 2-3 kg for 3 days ! at the first time , i didn't believe how it could be happend . but , now i believe this is a way too loose some kilos of my body . but , besides that . i doing some excersice too . like , treadmill , jogging , and skipe rope every night (honestly , the all excerses i do . it depends on my mood to do it . so it's not a routine :P) for skipe rope , there's two reason why i choose it . first : to loose my weight of course . and second part is : to add my height ! sadly , i'm a poor short and fatty girl . (luckilly , i'm not too ugly :P) please , if some of you know how to solve this problem . i BEG you to share with me . please ? :)

BORED

2008-07-09T03:00:00.000-07:00

is getting bored in here . my mom is going with my sister and my dad is nowhere . everybody is going now . even my housemaid too ! jeez . i'm alone at home now . feel lonelly , and scary . what i can do now , just typing with my laptop and repost this . i still kikuk with my close friends in high school . yeah , since "that" case . i feel further with my friends . especially nhya and dhika . plus , there is one person whose always burnt those girls with some doktrin . jeez , i really hate this mean girls . why i can have a good relationship with kind of this girl before ? huuuuh . now , i just hope and pray that was clear and we can get nice time like we had before .

well finally , i make it

2008-07-09T02:17:00.000-07:00

actually , it had been a long time ago when i had a really new blog . but , i really didn't understand how to make it :) so , i decided to make a new one . and tried my poor english as well . god , i really bad in english ya know . but i tried to fix them while i post in this blog :3 well , here goes my story